Anyone that knew Collins knew he was simply a big kid. To those that didn't know him however they'd find him immature and question his mentality. Truth of the matter was Collins believed in having fun. He fought getting old and boring with his sense of humor. Truth of the matter was Tom Collins was a smart man and few really knew the extent to that. Then again Collins really didn't care what other people thought of him. those that were important in his life knew what kind of man he was. They knew he was intelligent no matter how he acted. He figured why act old and be miserable. That's what was expected, and it's what he fought against.

Besides Angel loved that big kid, that playful side he had. So did Tobias and Juliet, it allowed daddy to get down and dirty and play with them. They loved it now they weren't just crawling but running all over the place. It made the chase more fun.

Tom Collins
Rent
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There are times when we go somewhere when Me, Angel, and the babies look like what others consider a normal family. Dad, Mom, two kids. It's what we are in our minds, in the eyes of our friends. But to some we are just perverse. Tainting the children. Two men, one dressing as a woman corrupting the lives of two children.

Of course that's not what we are. We are two people in love. Two people married. Two people that took two babies in that were left abandoned and alone. We gave them a home and love. You have to wonder where the perversion is don't you?

We are just like any family you find. We care for each other, we love our children, and we live our lives. We are better them some other families out there too. The ones that hate each other, hit each other, beat their children. We aren't like that.

We keep secrets but really, what family doesn't have their secrets?


Tom Collins
RENT
164 Words

Who has made you smile recently?

First and foremost the woman that has made me smile since the first night we met. Angel Dumott Shunard. I can't help but smile when she's around, her smile if infectious. She always seems happy no matter what. Her energy makes me smile. When she says I love you I grin like an idiot. It's nice to hear.

Then there is Tobias and Juliet. They've began walking. It makes me smile to watch their wobbly walk, skirting around the edges of furniture using it for support. They can now say Mama and Dada. I'm loving watching them grow and want to do so for a lot longer.

My family as a whole they are the ones that make me smile. Not just Angel and the babies, but Mark, Mo, Mimi, Roger, Chase and his family. They all make this man smile by just being in my life.

Sappy I know but those who know me might know I'm a sappy guy and I'm not ashamed of it. When you don't know how long you have left you make sure those that matter know you care about them.

Tom Collins
RENT
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What is the biggest mistake you have made in a relationship?

I've only made one notable mistake. One that cost me a lot in life. I put too much faith in a man that never really deserved it. A man that cheated on everyone and why I thought it'd be different with me I have no clue. I always give everyone the benefit of the doubt, and think everyone possesses the ability to change who they are. If they so choose. Drew chose to remain as he was. A lying cheating bastard. In the end it was me that paid the price for my trust and faith in him.

He led a reckless life and I was along for the ride as it were. When I was off working at MIT he'd have his little toys over to play. I was never the wiser though I should have known.

I nearly lost faith in people being able to change but then I met Chase and he's doing pretty good for himself. Then again anyone with Angel looking out for them is in good hands. Oddly guess you could say I didn't learn from my mistake because I'll always give everyone the benefit of the doubt. Just part of what makes me who I am.


Tom Collins
RENT
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Fragile. in response to this post from Angel.

When he held Angel in his arms there were times he was afraid he held on too tight. That he'd shatter the beautiful creature she was to him. She felt so fragile sometimes in his arms, it wasn't that she was weak. It was more she was his treasure to guard and keep safe, something so precious he was afraid to lose.

He couldn't fathom a life without her, he never wanted to feel what that was like again. That cold alone feeling he had before her, that dark cloud that hovered over his life when he got that paper. The paper that seemed to sign his life away.

He was always a strong kid, he rarely got sick when he was younger, and now there were times he felt he'd break. But there was Angel always there laying in his ar,ms, her own wrapped around him to keep him together. Angel was his glue, she was what kept him living.

He had resigned himself to being alone, that he didn't need anyone. Then one look into those beautiful brown eyes and it all changed. The smile, the way Angel looked at him, he knew that instant he was gone. He was dependent on Angel, and he didn't care. He gave her everything he was, he gave her his most valued possessions, his heart and his soul.

One thing Tom Collins knew was that Angel would always keep those safe, no matter what she would always hold them close. In his weakest most fragile moments, she was always there and he'd be there for her.

She was his glue, and he would be hers. She'd keep him safe and he'd do the same for her. He'd always be hers no matter what the future brought it would always be Angel and Collins. Two beings afraid the other would break, so they'd hold them just a bit tighter, just a bit closer.

Tom Collins
RENT
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As we all know today is Valentine's Day the day to tell the ones you care about you love them. Such a corporate killing of a day. Why wait until Valentine's Day? Is there a law that says you have to wait? Or is the world just too busy that we all need a day to be reminded to say "I love you"? It's something you should say everyday, it'll never get old. People like to hear it. I don't support these types of days but to me it's just another day.

With that said. I love you all, my family, and my friends.


Angel you mean the world to me babygirl and I know I tell you that everyday or I try. It's the truth.

Get your own valentinr

I never thought I'd say this, but...

I never thought I'd say this, but sometimes I just want a cheeseburger. I know I'm a vegetarian, everyone I know knows I am one. Just sometimes there is this deep craving to bite into a nice juicy cheeseburger. I don't know why or where this comes from. Maybe it's the inner working of the male species. That some feel the desire and need to just eat big huge chunks of meat. I mean I don't act on it, not sure I ever could. It just drives me crazy at times. I guess it's like my deep dark secret that the vegetarian wants to eat meat sometimes. I mean being a vegetarian is just part of who I am, if I gave that up I give up part of what makes me, Me.

I know this all sounds silly to most, but it's something hard for me. I could break down and just say to hell with it and go have one. But at what cost to my beliefs?


Tom Collins
Rent
196 words

for: 100moods
Title: The Monster Within
Fandom: RENT
Characters: Collins, Angel, Tobias, Juliette
Prompt: Predatory
Word Count: 299
Rating: G
Warnings/Spoilers: none
Summary: Collins plays with his kids.


( Predatory )

What song best describes your life?

That's easy to choose a song, I'd have to pick mine and Angel's song. The one we sang when we first got together or at least made it officially known to each other. The lyrics are simple but the song has so much meaning behind them, it's the song that made me realize that I was no longer alone. I didn't have to deal with life by myself anymore, that there was always her there to hold me close. She'd be there no matter what and if I got sick she'd stay with me to take care of me. It's a wonderful feeling and one I never want to lose. Angel has been the best thing to happen to me.

( I'll Cover You )


What I have with Angel is everything I ever dreamed of having. Someone to just hold at night, someone who loves me completely. Supportive and caring. Someone who is willing to be there in good times and the bad times. Who won't run off if I do get sick, and she has the same thing from me. I love Angel with all my heart and will always be hers, no matter what happens.


Tom Collins
RENT
192 words